Divorce Sucks! And a serious note to my offspring

Today was a very solemn moment in my life for it is the day where I ultimately lost my wife (and in a way, my family). This morning I signed off on all the “Final Orders of Dissolution” which is a Politically Correct way of saying “Divorce”. All that is left is her signature and the court’s approval. Sigh!

I’m not big on sharing this publicly but I can’t help myself today. In a few days, the life and love that I shared a common commitment with for 24 years will be represented by nothing but a stack of papers in a file that says “you failed”. It wasn’t supposed to end this way. This was not the plan. Sigh!

I did nothing other than be the best husband and father that I could be…but that was somehow not enough. And as a result, I get banished, and my three wonderful children must now live apart from me, 2,500 miles away with their mother. She gets them for 300+ days a year and I the rest, but they are ours to share for a lifetime…and I love them more than life itself.

They spent the summer here with me in Texas and we grew together as if all four of us were brothers. We laughed and fought and wrestled and taught and goofed and hugged a lot. We had a grand time.  My soul has a hole that cannot be filled by anything but their presence. I miss them dearly. Sigh!

There is so much I could say here, but I choose to express the only thing that matters…

I love my children, I miss my children and I know that they love and miss me too. My greatest hope is that I can be their hero just as they are heroes to me.

God bless you, Tillman, Layton and Harrison! You are loved!

ghfool

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19 comments on “Divorce Sucks! And a serious note to my offspring

  1. This is not a reflection on u! U just said u did the best u could-no one can do any more then that-for some it just isn’t enough because nothing can make them happy-ESP if they are self centered! It takes 2 to make it work n 2 to make it fail supposidely but I don’t agree w that statement because I like u did everything to the best of ur ability and it still wasn’t enough-kinda like chemo for cancer treatment-sometimes it cures it-others pay the price w the toll it takes and still can’t get a grip on that disease! It is a death and u r entitled to mourn ur loss-and ur boys loss-I know they would not choose for it to be this way if they could! U r their dad and no matter what they will always love and admire u! Kids know deep down-u can’t fool um for long & u will be happy again – and may even end up w them w u if that’s what they choose when they r old enough! XO & best wishes and congratulations on ur next chapter!

  2. So, so sorry, Lewis. Call me if you want to catch up/hang out. I’ll be in Wimberley second half of October. Not really sure the headline on this post fits the message……

  3. So sorry! I’ve been there. I could tell you more of the really bad things that have happened in my life…to help you realize you’re not alone…but I don’t think that helps. Right now you need to express your sadness and feelings. Sending peace… Sherry

    • Thanks Sherry! I know I’m not alone, but it remains a fairly personal journey. It feels like my entire family was killed in some horrific accident and their ghosts now haunt from afar.

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